OVERVIEW

HAHA how's it going? 2011 has its ups and downs. Safe to say its a roller coaster year. Weeeeeeeee. Being 17 certainly is different from being a 16 year old. I feel like i'm carrying more weights and burdens on my shoulders than ever before. But one thing good about it is the reward after suffering and getting slapped by flying shitz a crossed your face (;

LUCK

In many ways i'm considered lucky. Family is doing good but how i wish things could be better. But oh well, can't have everything right? Ehek I have the best-est of friends, made new friends, reconnected with old ones and i thank God and my mum for letting me spend time with them. They're the best and again i Thank God for giving me great comrades. But at the same time (not wishing to sound greedy), i wish i could spend time with Fareena and Fatim :( I've gotten so close with them up to the point where everytime, lets say i talk to fareena otp i would be annoyed cuz i wanna see her and fatim upfront so we could chill, crack jokes and do mothers :S HAHA at this moment all i want is to go out with them :B

SCHOOL

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I SWEAR I LOVE MY CLASS THIS YEAR! 5 KUNING FTW \M/ The jokes and pranks we come up with. The butt humping, shuffling, titty grabbing, sexual assaulting, ball slapping things we do on a daily basis plus Retard Unit is by far the best thing i have live to experience for the past decade of my school life :') I LOVE MY CLASS AND I LOVE MY INDIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANS <3

RUGBY

So next week will be my final week playing rugby for my school. Right now, i'm feeling pretty emotional about this. For three years i have been wearing the Number 1 Red and Blues jersey. Its fucking heavy for me to pass it on to my juniors. I love my team and no matter how fucked up it is I love it and I love my school, friends, family and my life in general. I'd admit my life is pretty fucked up but its the only one i got and I actually like it that way. I like things and people who are fucked up in a way. Especially when it comes to the one c(: jeng jeng jeng

I bid you good day and till next time.

P/s: Fareena i hope you're reading this. Cuz on my list of who/what i like..

You're topping the list (;

HI. I'M HAVING MY FINAL EXAMINATION TOMORROW
(copy yas jap, AHAHAHA)

Mobile update #2

So my computer sorta crashed and i gotta live depending on my nokia's wifi. Sweet! Haha, next week will be my final examination for form 4. Damn, who would believe that i made it through with scars and cramps but still smiling, laughing and standing at attention. Weeeeeee!

A year ago, i would never have thought that things would change this much. Although there was a time where i said to myself in '09 that things are gonna be same when i'm in form 4 and when i turned 16. (I lied, hehek.)

Truth be told, i knew something was bubbling up and i knew something big was gonna happen. But if there's one thing that i've learnt this year, its that things will never carry on like we planned.

There's just not much fun to it honestly (;

If I let you in, You'll just want out. If I tell you the truth, You'll fight for a lie. If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up. If you follow me, you will only get lost. If you try to get closer, We'll only lose touch. But you already know too much. And you're not going anywhere.

Mobile update #1

So Yusri was admited to SJMC on monday cuz his appendix grew to 9cm, like wtf rite? So on tuesday (one day before school started), Shamira asked me weather or not i wanna to go pay him a visit. So i was like, yeah lets. Ahahaha, but it was sad seeing the little guy so weak and helpless. Mana tak, he finished operating at 6am and was only allowed to drink at 8pm and eat only the next morning? Damn, but i guess it did put a smile to his face to come visit him :B and yas thought we came to visit her -.-

Haha, so when school started everything was more or less the same but there weren't that many form 3 students cuz they finished pmr. And we got our school magazines already! Haha, michelle, vivien and the rest of the editorial board did a pretty good job. Its just that this year has been filled with boring events and shit.

And thank god, i managed to play rugby for the first time in 2-3 months i think? Haha, damn it was sweet. But i seriously hate cramps. After an hour and half of training i was feeling perfectly fine with my stamina and breath still in tact. All of a sudden my right leg cramped up -.- Then another half hour later, my left leg then cramped up. Maybe i didn't stretch as much, well idk. Haha, but i did have my fun (;

Weight issue

Okay. For the first time in 10 years, i'll be honest with you. I think its pretty obvious that i have this issue ever since i was six. During kindergatren i weighed around 36Kg's. And year by year it increased till i looked myself in the mirror when i was 15, weighing a staggering 149 Kgs and i said to myself " Fuck this, i gotta do something" :( That's where it all changed. I met friends who cared enough for me so that i would change and be a better person health wise and character wise. Seriously, i hated myself when i was 13 - post 16. I was fucking fat, lazy and i couldn't do most of the things teenagers could do :'( Not only that, i was ridiculed a lot for being fat and ugly. It sucks, it FUCCCCKKKING SUCKS. But i'm glad and happy to say that i have been trying to lose weight and now i weigh in at 100KGs! And just so you know, even if i was really skinny i would only go down to 80KGs only (; Its a huuuuge accomplishment for anyone and everyone :') Some people may say i'm exaggerating this but idgaf. I'm happy and i'm thankful. Thank you Azzizul Azril and thank you Jack Yong. I don't know what i would do without you guys. I'm in tears just typing this out :') And thank you God, for everything that came along with my hard work :)

To yas,

I read your blog and i wanna say that i'm happy to be there for you dude (; You deserve so much more than anyone can get. You may say it isn't fair to others but its your happiness yas. No one should judge on how much you deserve (': I wasn't there when you were 14 but i hope to make it up for the next 80 years dude. Your my yasmin iman. Ingat, back up plan :P AHAHAHA. Go fuck yourself lahh.